In tête-à-têtes with living souls about moving from a company that I worked for twenty years I suggested that I was content. At my BIG age, working since the age of fifteen and six months, I also talked about balance.
Of Work & Life
What does that look like to you B?
Read MoreOften we hear living souls state that they “have entered their villain arc” or have “become the villain” in the context of their social systems. I Am using to me language, I believe it means that they are setting boundaries or moving away from unhealthy relationships.
Read MoreI fell asleep on the left, but woke without center. Five-hundred count thread softens me, only some unwrap before sunrise.
The Sun is shining but it’s cold.
“Alexa? What’s the temperature?”
Read MoreRandom Observation … about nothing, yet everything
Giving a genuine, kind compliment
I believe I talked this into reality because it was a matter of conversation over the weekend. After my morning workout I stopped by Tradarius Jenkins to grab some essentials. After I parked and made my way to the door I notice a woman putting bags in her car—
Read MoreFirst, they love you, then they hate you, then they love you again.
Then they spin the block, but always on some passive-agress-her terms masked as humor.
Received a text message at one-thirty ante meridian— a meme using the guy tapping his finger on his head, having just thought of something. He’s figured out a way to avoid his problems, and is passing it along to you as a genius strategy…
Read MoreI have always held in suspense a side of me that I do not want others to see. At times I’ve acknowledged this in my writing— My most popular phrase…
“I'm not afraid of the dark side of human nature and will bend the rules some time.”
Read MoreWe are all capable of love. But not everyone is capable of the work that relationships take. It’s ok to know what you want and also know that you can’t afford to sustain it yet.
Read MoreThe end, or the beginning depending on your perspective, of the year is a great time for renewal. We highlight a list of goals or make resolutions. Attacking the new year with vigor, however, we don't always free up space to take on these new ideas we have for our lives.
Starting the year with a clean slate gives me the space to reflect…
Read MoreEye Hear You
“opening”, swipe to answer, I can hear your beautiful smile.
Eye See You
Sun light resting on your face, reflection set loose. I can see into the future.
Read MoreOver the weekend I attempted to watch a few new television shows, but ended up going back and watching repeats of shows that I enjoy. As I watched this scene from Season 3 of Survivor’s Remorse — The Photoshoot I Am reminded of the promise of L O V E
dot dot dot
Read MoreCo-Star has been on it for the past two weeks. Outside of the “for entertainment purposes only” Astrology has a direct connection to the positions, motions, and properties of the Stars’, Moons’ and shit that affect people and events here on Planet Rock.
Science
Read MoreCollectively, we have lost a lot over the past two years. The interconnectedness of Covid and other Life Changes owe us a check.
A commonality among the featured essays’ has been full autonomy. Whatever the experience, and/or how it is viewed— The art of self-regulation reads strong. Strengthening our sense of self by exposing and eliminating our inner conflicts. Writing (can) help facilitate that.
These conflicts consist of feeling unloved, deprived, betrayed, helpless, and on and on til’ the break of dawn.
Read MoreAnger, loneliness, fear, anxiety, deep happiness, burning frustration…none of the adjectives I thought I’d be using to describe my world at 39 but the first ones that popped into my head.
You see at 39, I thought I’d be prepping in a big way for 40! I always viewed 39 as the pre-game for the big 4-0, where you line all up the fabulous things to fete at forty. Husband, kids, house, car, and travel points racked up. I’m supposed to be planning a girls' trip to somewhere luxurious or a big 40th!
Read MoreI received a lot of private feedback on this sentence from my post,
"I could be a great boyfriend, partner, or husband except… I do NOT want to do the work."
Mostly you need to heal, you're hurt, and you need time feedback.
Read MoreIf it's on your mind, it's on your body
Emotions are valuable and they deserve to be supported, not to be suppressed but to be understood.
Journaling is therapeutic.
Brian
Anonymous Journal Entry
I had an epiphany— an illuminating discovery, a realization…
Read More“Love is the one game you lose by refusing to play.”
I heard that quote a very long time ago, I think on Ally McBeal… is my age showing? I think that we can replace the word “love” with the word “life.” I’ve realized if you don’t live in the dash, you lose.
It’s a simple rule, 19xx - 20xx, the dash between birth and expiration.
That dash is your life.
Read MoreI did things kind of late in life but it seemed like the timeline was only in my head.
When I moved to Washington, D.C. to start grad school at 27, I looked at my cohort of 23 and 24 year olds and thought “ya’ll some babies!!” I had a whole career before going back for another degree but being on the cusp of 30 was making me feel like I had more life experience, more maturity and more to lose when it came to doing well in my program. Failure wasn't an option.
Read MoreOver the past five years, I have connected with truly remarkable people. Our lives go better connecting with those who help us evolve into our higher selves. Life has taught me to see the best in people, and it’s driven me mental when people see the worst in me. Life should say show them the best in themselves because they forget that. Self-improvement is a two-way street.
Read MoreThe loneliness hits in waves that never last for long, just long enough to remind me of what I'm missing. But am I really missing anything or anyone or am I just bored? Was I just looking for someone to fill a void I was perfectly capable of filling myself?
My guy died about nine months before the world shut down for Covid. I was in no rush to start a new relationship and lockdown gave me the perfect excuse. The pandemic gave me two years to entertain the idea of a relationship while flirting with men I had no intention of meeting. Dating apps are not for the faint of heart and AOL dating is the worst.
Read MoreLife 10 years ago was so full of hope, fully believing that although I’d missed the mark of gaining life’s expected treasures ie. marriage, kids, perfect career, and house, I still had time to gain them and life as I had dreamed would/could still be grand. Then reality hit. Hard. I got married. And most days it was not a bed of roses. More like thorns. Had children who are now teens. And if I could put them back . . . . nevermind. Purchased a house and even that wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. It turned into a house of horrors. All that to say- things that I thought would make me happy, fill my inner spirit, and bring me complete joy had done anything but. Fast forward to this year, years later, and I’m still unhappy. But, I’m on a different journey now.
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